We as baseball bloggers, podcasters, writers, insiders, personalities, etc. are all in the same boat; attempting to do our jobs without the sport we cover actually being played. This was fine for the few months in between the Washington Nationals World Series Championship and the beginning of Spring Training because we all knew it would be back, plus there were transactions, the Rule 5 Draft and of course the Houston Astros banging scheme to occupy our time and our columns. Now that has all stopped. Sure there are some headlines trickling out of Major and Minor League Baseball for all of us to discuss, but those have been few and far between. It has been days since the release of the Arizona Plan and still we have to come up with ideas. If we let even a day go by without putting out some sort of article or broadcast, we fear that we will lose some sort of relevance and be lost in the shuffle. This fear must be even stronger for those that do this for a living.
Those that follow me, read my “articles” and listen to me know that I am just a lowly blogger and podcaster; writing stories with my partner in crime, Gary Morgan, on this site and having conversations with my friend, Chris Lanuti, on the weekly episode of Bucs In the Basement. I know my place in life or more accurately where I stand in the pecking order of baseball journalists; and believe me if I thought I might be a little higher, those above me have been quick to remind that I am not. Obviously this was all before the playing field was turned on his head and leveled to some degree. There are still the Jeff Passans and Ken Rosenthals of the baseball world, but everyone below them has moved a little bit closer together. People who have had access to players and coaches on a regular basis are now stuck inside their houses like the rest of us; forced to come up with their own ideas for articles, making their own assessments of players and just being more creative in general. As my co-host Chris talked about this past Monday on our Live show, writers have been relegated to bloggers and they’re not that good at it. They haven’t been asked to come up with original thoughts in a while, so they are combing bloggers and podcasters sites looking for their next inspiration.
This past week has been surreal to me in more ways than one as I was caught in a heated battle with another site for doing exactly what I discussed above. I lost my cool, I lost my composure and became something that I am ashamed of. I didn’t exactly see red, but I felt it. I had only one goal; bringing them down. I was too busy channeling my inner Amir Garrett taking on the entire Pirates dugout, instead of focusing on all the positives that myself, Gary and Chris have accomplished over the past months; my focus was solely on pointing out the faults of others. Through a barrage of vicious tweets and spouting drunken accusations, I became my worst self. I started to look for the worst in my peers at every turn, while becoming paranoid that it would happen again. Clearly what the other site did to me wasn’t acceptable by any means, but neither was the way I reacted. My emotions got the best of me and I lashed out.
Moving forward I pledge to be a better version of myself and I hope that all other newly transformed bloggers and podcasters would do the same. We are truly on more even ground than we have ever been before, so why not take advantage of it by doing collaborations, giving each other credit for ideas, picking one another’s brains, doing crossover podcasts and shows and just being better human beings toward other human beings that are struggling through the same set of circumstances. I also have a hope that once every goes back to normal, those that will be elevated back to their normal places of real or imagined stature remember what it was like to be in the position of us lowly bloggers and podcasters.